We had a family/care team meeting, and we talked about taking Hayden home. Everything the doctors were doing for Hayden they said we could do at home. We knew he was going to die one day but they just said to take him and let him be as comfortable as we can so we set…

We had so many family members coming to see Hayden some came every day some came when they were not working,but I remember my mom, sister and I went to target to get some stuff and my birth dad and step came came to see him but we were not there so I told dickhead…

We had so many amazing NICU nurses for Hayden but my favorite one that I could talk to and we had a lot would have to be Melissa. Melissa made it so Hayden was her primary baby. If she was working Hayden was her baby that she would look after all day. And she would.…

The day after I had Hayden I was sitting in my room while the genetics counselor lady went to meet him about an hour or so after she went to see him she came in and she had a very sad look on her face. She told us some very unpleasant news that she knew…

When you go in to have a baby, you never should have to fear about your baby not living. Well that was my case anyways never in a million years would I have thought having a baby would bring me so much heartache and fear for the unknown future. I remember it like it was…

Ever since I was a little girl I knew I wanted to be a mom. As a little innocent girl I knew I wanted 100 kids, and I had them all named 😅 To my surprise being pregnant is hard work, emotionally and physically. Especially when you don’t have the support from your baby’s dad.…

Most people know who this is about and some may not agree with me speaking up about it, but I need to. I’m not gonna bore you with every little thing this man… Boy did to me. The not letting me eat when we went out, punching doors, always putting me down to the point…